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Four Months Old
If our Divine Gift were still here with us, he would have been four months old on September 6, 2024, at 6:57 PM. On that day, Juju and I...
Ivelis Santiago
Sep 8, 20241 min read


December…
Time passed rapidly in 2023. After confirming Juju’s pregnancy and seeing Emrys for the first time in October, time just flew. I passed...
Ivelis Santiago
Sep 4, 20242 min read


Changes
So much has happened in the past three days. We signed a lease for a place in the area where our first safe place is located. We were...
Ivelis Santiago
Aug 30, 20242 min read


Three Months Without Emrys
It was three months ago that I called David and asked if he would stop by and stay with the dogs while Juju and I took Emrys to the...
Ivelis Santiago
Aug 27, 20242 min read


A Small Gift
It is getting harder and harder going back to that house. Yes, we are moving soon, but everything is a process. You can no longer go in...
Ivelis Santiago
Aug 24, 20242 min read


The Bestie
Back in September of 2023, I was looking through posts on the “neighbor” app, and saw this strange little puppy that caught my eye. We...
Ivelis Santiago
Aug 18, 20242 min read


Barely Living
Today, at 6:57 PM, Emrys would have been 3 months old, if he would have been given a chance at life. I think of what we may have been...
Ivelis Santiago
Aug 6, 20242 min read


Two Months Without Emrys
(Written on 7/27/20024 through just after midnight 7/28/2024) Today, just before 2:00 AM, marks the two month anniversary of the most...
Ivelis Santiago
Jul 27, 20243 min read
Lost
Isn’t it crazy how three weeks can define who you are? You don’t realize just how much of an impact something has on you until it is no...
Ivelis Santiago
Jul 26, 20242 min read
My Test
Emerys was conceived during a very challenging time for me. I was in the process of preparing to take the most significant exam of my...
Ivelis Santiago
Jul 24, 20242 min read


Formula is NOT the Answer
Today marks 2 months since Juju and I took Emrys to the pediatric clinic with symptoms. His tiny feet were swollen. He was grunting. His...
Ivelis Santiago
Jul 22, 20241 min read


First Pictures
Juju’s pregnancy occurred during a time when women’s rights had been compromised. Roe vs Wade was overturned in June of 2022, and living...
Ivelis Santiago
Jul 20, 20242 min read


The Emptiness
It is so heartbreaking knowing that you are not ready to part with your loved one’s things, but are being forced to do so, because now...
Ivelis Santiago
Jul 6, 20242 min read


Betrayal
Not long after the dream, Juju came to me and said, “Hey mom, FRIEND has a problem. His mom has him bouncing from hotel to hotel, has...
Ivelis Santiago
Jul 4, 20242 min read
One Month Without Emrys
On June 26, 2024, both Juju and I were restless, and emotions were high. Neither of us had really gotten sleep because it is getting more...
Ivelis Santiago
Jun 30, 20243 min read


The Dream (the story begins)
I have always been a bit sensitive to supernatural things. Dreams, tarot cards, divination, intuition, etc. So I knew something that...
Ivelis Santiago
Jun 28, 20241 min read


Painful Memories (written the night of 06/26/2024)
I was going to go back in time to talk about the events Leading up to Emrys’ creation, but today is a really hard day. Today marks one...
Ivelis Santiago
Jun 27, 20243 min read


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Jun 24, 20241 min read
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